Just when I thought..

Just when I thought all hope was gone and I felt so lonely in my battle for Trey, I have been introduced to some GREAT parents. I figured, being a single mom of 3 toddlers under the age of 5, (one of which has special needs) doesn't leave much room for a social life. Even by myself it tends to be a challenge. We get funny looks because Trey loves to run up to everybody's table at restaurants if he sees something he likes to eat. Spencer will have a tantrum for attention and Mila will escape because she's got the opportunity to do so. I figured, my life is my children. Nothing glamourous but quite fulfilling. When I first separated from my husband I wanted to be "Meredith", not worry about responsibilities for a while and catch up on all the partying I didn't get to do while I was married & pregnant. Then my focus shifted to career. Later it was my hobbies. Now, I am finally ready to be a mother. I think I am ready to be Trey's mother. What I mean by that is finally I have woken up and realized the amount of work and responsibility it takes to be the mother of an Autistic child. I have been enrolled in a University I really didn't want to attend. I know more about neurological disorders and testing, the special education system than I ever wanted to. To see how far we have come in Trey's development is more rewarding than any diploma or grade I have received. Seeing how far I have to go is a welcome challenge. I am ready to show all those who told me I couldn't or he wouldn't....I HAVE and TREY DOES.

The whole purpose of this entry was to share with all this wonderful site I ran across recently. I have been struggling with my spiritual fulfillment and the daily battle of being the mother of an Autistic child. www.childrenofdestiny.org I think is my little answer. I will see how it goes, but the daily inspiration and weekly topics may help.